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despair

2010-08-04T23:05:00.002+08:00

I've done a lot of stupid shit.i made a lot of awfull mistakes.but the latest one took the cake.

my plan all crumble down.screw korang.2 tahun untuk apa?

ill just be in my room...till 2012...

kthxbai

pictures cant be compared to words. they are worth more than you think.

2009-06-11T22:37:00.007+08:00

ahhh. ruangan cyber. hi. apa khabar semua? saya harap kalian sihat-sihat belaka. agak-agak berjanggut juga dari kali terakhir saya kemas kini blog bersahaja saya ini.

ini agak random. saya sedar bahawa adalah sukar bagi saya untuk menerangkan sesuatu perkara yang berada di dalam minda saya kepada pihak yang saya ingin terangkan sesuatu subjek itu. kesukaran ini telah menimbulkan banyak silap faham antara saya dengan pihak yang saya ingin berbicara. ini membuatkan saya annoyed dengan diri sendiri.

contoh. baru tadi, bapa saya menalifon saya bertanyakan dimana terletaknya The Ship di KL. dalam kepala saya sudah terbayangkan map. saya tahu dimana ia terletak,di bukit bintang. ada dua lagi. tapi saya mengalami kesukaran ketika ingin menerangkan lokasi tempat itu. saya lebih selesa terus melukis kedudukan ia, tetapi bapa saya berada di tempat lain. bagaimana?

saya fikir, ini berpunca bagaimana saya berfikir. kerap kali, saya berfikir hanya dengan gambarajah. dan selalunya sebagai process. menghafal process adalah kacang buncis bagi saya. perkara-perkara yang mudah pun saya boleh buatkan orang silap faham dan sebab itu, kadang kala, saya tidak reti untuk meluahkan apa yang berada di dalam fikiran saya. too many things in my mind and the words are all jumbled up. lebih baik senyap. lebih teruk lagi, cubaan memperbetulkan pemahaman orang terhadap apa yang telah saya cakap. ia akan merumitkan lagi.

itulah kelemahan yang saya ingin perbaiki sejak dahulu lagi.

look at math, 2 x 5 is equals to 5 x 2. tapi "makan roti" adalah berbeza dengan "roti makan". whatttttt...

demmit!

2009-02-12T15:35:00.003+08:00

semalam. ketika aku melayan diri di satu highway yg best di bandaraya ni. tiba2 ada satu kereta mencucuk dari belakang. Audi A4 B7 2.0T biru. aku perasan kereta itu sebelum dia mencucuk aku. time tu, dia hanya menggukan lane tengah. chilling seperti biasa. time tu aku on fast lane, cruising on 140 macam tu. ada volvo x90 on the tail time tu, tetapi dia ketinggalan, tidak dapat mencucuk aku.

ok, sambung balik cerita yg ada kereta tiba2 cucuk aku ni. oleh sebab aku berdarah remaja, ketidak puasan hatiku membuat kan aku floored accelerator aku pada selekoh2 highway tersebut. boleh nampak dia ketinggalan juga. tetapi dia tidak beralah. masih ingin mengejar. aku belok kiri dan kanan on 170 begitu. rpm aku mencecah 5000. gila. dia masih berusaha. sudah ketinggalan...tapi boleh nampak dia cuba memecut di selekoh2. dari rear view mirror aku nampak dia perlahan bila mengambil selekoh, dan memecut bila keluar selekoh. 'hehs' aku smirked. selekoh2 memang susah ar kan nak cucuk aku.

tetapi, pada penghujungnya, aku tewas. selekoh2 itu tidak lama. bila tiba satu kawasan tegak terus, aku ditinggal olehnya. dia memecut laju at straight line. sigh...boleh dengar derumah ekzosnya yg garang bila dia memecut meninggalkan aku. hebat.

hari ini agak patut letak dalam history.

2009-02-01T23:21:00.003+08:00

FAILED.

even laptop pun tak boleh repair.

burung gagak

2008-11-18T15:15:00.004+08:00

adalah seekor burung gagak yang hidup di suatu bandar. dia adalah sepupu kepada si gagak di dalam cerita "gagak dan pasu air" yang letak batu dalam pasu tu untuk minum air. gagak ini sama seperti gagak-gagak lain, berbulu hitam, paruhnya pun hitam. memang susah la nak differentiate gagak ni dari gagak-gagak lain.

tetapi, gagak ini agak pelik sedikit berbanding saudara-saudaranya yang lain. ia gemar memakan bangkai binatang yang baru sahaja di langgar oleh kenderaan di jalan raya. kira baginya...rezeki jatuh dari langit. dia hanya makan bangkai yang baru-baru di langgar sahaja. yang mana, bankai-bangkai yang sudah berada di atas jalan raya melebihi 5 jam tidak akan di usiknya. "i dont hunt rats or eat fruits" jawabnya. "deer tastes better" sambungnya bila di tanya tentang perangai peliknya itu. tapi hakikatnya, dia tidak pernah merasai daging rusa sebelum ini. selalunya dia cuma jumpa arnab, kucing, biawak ataupun ayam ja di atas jalan raya itu.

nak di jadikan cerita, ketika dia melepak-melepak dengan rakan-rakannya, "kreeeeekkk!".... "bang!". burung-burung lain terbang kecut terdengar bunyi hentakan yang kuat itu. kecuali gagak yg sedang di ceritakan ini. dalam fikirannya..."Oh yeahhh. makan besar! "

oh gembiranya di hatinya pabila bangkai yg terbaring itu adalah bangkai seekor anak rusa. "Sweet! sure sedap gila nih!" . terbangnya dengan rakus ke bangkai itu. tak sempat-sempat dia nak makan untuk dua kali telan, tiba-tiba datang truck 4x4 yang laju tidak perasan ada bangkai binatang di depannya. gagak dalam cerita ini terlewat untuk terbang jauh dari bangkai anak rusa itu lalu berlanggar dengan 4x4 itu. tumpas la seekor gagak oleh sebuah grill truck yg bersinar lagi keras.

itu la. jangan ambil ringan benda2 ni. eventhough its still fresh and on an open road, doesnt mean it is yours. but if you really want it though, you need to be skilled yo! jangan mengambil kesempatan boleh?

p.s: does anyone ever tried to run over a bird before? any type of bird. gila susah ok. tak pernah berjaya.

ekor pagari

2008-11-03T11:03:00.005+08:00

ekor pagari. ekor pagari adalah satu penyakit yang beleluasa di jalan raya-jalan raya malaysia yang tidak dapat di bendung lagi. if you spent enough time on the road, especially highways, you'll see a lot of people suffers from this disease. its not as deadly as drunk driving but it is annoying.

people who tailgating irritates me. seriously, where are you guys heading to? the federal highway is pack with ten of thousands car as is. you still stuck in the traffic. what..you can save like..3 minutes of your driving with tailgating other motorist? stupid face. membahayakan keselamatan orang lain betul la. tailgating will shows what kind of person you are:

1. Stupid. kalau tailgating and tekan break lambat. siapa gak yg kena?kalau bawak laju2 kat highway kosong takpa la. ni kat packed like sardines road. apa kau nak achieve ni?

2. Rarely be on time. Apparently you are rushing to somewhere. and..you are not getting there any faster as the road is packed.

3. Sucks at time management. Lain kali, if say, A to B is usually takes 40mins. then tak payah la gerak from point A tu..20 mins prior to meeting scheduled or janji time.

3. Ricer. fast car wannabe. Konon kereta kau laju sangat la sampai terpaksa ikut dekat2 kereta lain?

4. Your life is kinda sucks. This is just my observation. people who has road rage, or doesnt respect anyone on the road, most of them are the one who being oppressed(is that a right word?), selalu kena bully la basically. at the office ke. kat rumah ke. dengan kawan2 ke. so diorang tak puas hati, nak tunjuk hero kat jalan. sebab diroang dalam 'cocoon besi' diorang. plus, kalau korang 'rasa' kereta korang terlampau laju, i.e 1.6L 4 cyl which gives you around 90bhp tapi nak potong semua kereta on the road, kau kena check with reality sikit la dude. just except the fact that kau not in control of your life.

if the situation arise, what i like to do is, not allowing them to pass me for some time just to annoyed them. then i'll let them pass...but wait, i'll not going to be easy on them. after they passed me, i'll chase them back! bagi dia rasa. ni kalau highway tu bagi chance la. i'll chase them..and cucuk balik their car. until they know that their car is not as fast they think it is and give way to me. its 90% success rate la. selalu kereta yg berkelakuan begini adalah kereta2 jepun like civic or accord, lancers, protons, bmws dan a few benz. but i never seen a camry or lexus tailgating before. hurmm..make me wonder do people who drive camry or lexus are laid back?. cool gila.

like i said, its 90% success rate to chase them back. last week, i faced one of those failed try. it was my mistake anyway. the car i was chasing was a 645i with ac Schnitzer bodykits. kecoh gila nak cucuk2 time peak hour. i should have been more sabar. i learned my mistake. so the moral of the story is, i need a 4.0L V8 420 bhp with M-DCT.

raya oi raya!

2008-10-28T23:13:00.002+08:00

...eh.. dah nak abis dah raya?

ok. that was...ermmm..fun?

for the past 5 raya, i was away from KL and i thought raya was different because of that obvious reason. i didnt really missed raya here. but it just felt different. raya time snowing. raya time exam. pagi2 raya terus pi mid term. it was OS if i not mistaken. the killer subject. raya time thanksgiving day makan turkey.to try to make a turkey once is enough in a lifetime. 9 hours in oven? have to check it every half an hour? its a job! raya at jimmy johns. makan sandwich. and raya chill at home. watching tv.

but then again as you can see. my raya out of KL was kinda the same as raya here in tanah malaya. i know some people had exams as early as 3rd raya. there were also some people that came to the office already on the 2nd raya. and masak lemang for sure take more than 9 hours. (betul ke tak? kalau tak sila betulkan). then, its a culture nowadays to watch the latest cerita melayu on TV the first day of raya. so. dont think that raya oversee is alien and sad than here.

moral of this post is. ermm...edham is penipu kata ada mercun tapi takda. janji2 palsu!...PALSU I TELL YOU!

Ehem

2008-10-26T02:39:00.003+08:00

Hi all. This is Baby writing on HIS behalf, again.

This blog will have an update in a day or two.

(Not more that 48 hours)

Kthxbai.

girls gone wild

2008-10-18T12:44:00.002+08:00

oh. semalam was crazy bat shit fun! everyone got one nintendo DS each. mine is called Dim Sum. yup, that is its name. Dim Sum. i'm so awesome at giving things name. everyone was so excited with their DS they already start playing their DS in my car. giler weh. 3 girls, all of them playing their Cooking Mama. like everyone was infected or something. gelak sana sini. bising sana sini. with the games sound, my cars sound exactly like game arcade kat tingkat atas sungai wang.

my car was geek girls galore weh last night! then we makan dinner at the yong tau foo place near ampang point. the first thing we did after we ordered was...play Mario Kart. MULTIPLAYER weh! so...4 of us. on the table. waiting for the food to come. playing kart racing. and this is mario kart..not the normal kart racing game. you can shoot each other with whatever thing you have. so adalah orang2 yg jerit sebigini:

"damn weh! who shot me with the turtle shell?!"

"shoot her! not me!"

ok..those are not the exact words. tapi can you imagine girls playing game and screaming at each other...in a public place? lagi2 family restaurant like the yong tau foo place. pening kepala la orang sekeliling. battery dah start blinking nak habis pun still keep on playing. sampai the DS totally mati.

oh. that is not it though, later today, we will go back to the game shop and pick up our guitar hero for DS. its gonna be awesome~!

Mmmm... City Bazaar

2008-10-18T01:14:00.001+08:00

Hi all. This is Baby writing on HIS behalf (because he's THAT awesome).

I'm here to inform you that this blog will have an update in a few hours time.

Kthxbai.

breast is best!

2008-10-09T11:35:00.007+08:00

so, this not news news. but when i was surfing few weeks ago, just before raya, i stumbled these:

http://blog.peta.org/archives/2008/09/breast_is_best.php

http://www.peta.org/mc/NewsItem.asp?id=11993

http://www.geekologie.com/2008/09/peta_to_ben_and_jerrys_use_bre.php

gila. bat effing insane! what are they thinking? causing obesity and heart diseases?

gives cows and veals a break?

first. oih orang2 amerika. yg causing arteries clogging and kegemukan melampau

tu sebab korang makan banyak lemak daging yg melampau. lemak susu is a good

lemak for giving energy. yg lebih2 tu ja jadi lemak kat mana2 yang korang tak

suka, seperti perut, peha, belakang dan lain2. yg PETA ni memandai2 cakap susu

yg causing those penyakit apahal. did they really do a research on those things?

diorang yg tau spent duit hire some dumb blondes jadi spokes person. cuba tanya

every person dalam PETA tu, how did they grow up? aku berani bet majority semua

minum susu lembu kecik2 dulu. even mak diorang sendiri pun tak bagi breast

milk kat anak diorang, diorang nak people giving breast milk to random people.

lagipun, its not only lemak daging bagi diorang penyakit, the fryer oil diorang guna

makan ayam goreng KFC diorang tu apa benda. cheeseburger lagi. fries. coke.

second. nak bagi lembu2 a break? crazy itu. apa fungsi lembu kalau tidak untuk

makan! selagi i havent seen a cow driving a bus or jadi cikgu or come out with

a good 4th dimensional theory, jangan nak memandai2 nak treat dia like a

human. yeah..of course ada yg jadi bajak. but thats doesnt give the right to

them to be treated like a thinking creature. they are put here to be used as

binatang.

kawan-kawan. inilah kerja2 MAT SALLEH bila diorang bosan. konon2 they are

superior compared to others. in the world. bodoh tak boleh di ajar.

thats it la PETA. goodluck with your children. may they not suffering from

bone diseases or muscles dysfunctional or weird allergies.

japanese 2.0l 4 cyl can beat continental 2.0l 4 cyl anytime

2008-09-22T00:24:00.002+08:00

menggelabah.

kenapa nak berkira hours minutes or even saats? kalau dah lambat, memang tak boleh di selamatkan.

chill the eff out or you becoming an ass.

mid year review

2008-07-23T00:52:00.000+08:00

kinda like one month too late mid year review. dah basi. but this blog needs an update. you know, keeping up with whats hot and whats not. not that im a trend setter nor famous. just that, its kinda lame if i have a blog and not doing anything about it.

it has been 6 months since i came back to malaysia for good. it was not that easy to leave states in the first place. it took me 2 months to convince myself to pack all my belongings and come back.

the life there was good. not excellent. not bad. just good. no worries. everything just in order. work. home. work. makan. shopping. hiburan. work. work. and makan. and it was simple too. i didnt really care whats going on with their government as it doesnt really affected me that much anyway. the gas prices? i didnt own a car when i was in san francisco. the public transportation was terbaik. easy. basically it was an easy life. everthing in a hop on. hop off.

and i could have waited longer and keep looking for A job. i had my H1-B visa (working permit in US). still am and most of my friends try to talk me out from leaving states using the same reason. my H1-B visa. see, it wasnt an easy task to get a working permit in states. you need to appoint a lawyer. and you must be sponsored by your company. then the fees was not that cheap. high 4 figures weh. on top of that, they only approves 65 000 working visas per fiscal year. compare to 450 000++ applicants per year. yeah. that number of applicants is PER YEAR. they only start taking applications on the april 1st. on my application date, they received 250 000 applications. that is just for the first day. and another 200 000++ the next day. on the third day, they closed their door. yup, they only open for application for only 2 days per year. so as you can see, they only approves around 15% or less visas per year. i was freaking lucky man. for an employee in such a small company, i was EFFING lucky. there were also people who works in bigger software company didnt get their working permit. and now, the number of applicants getting bigger, but the limit is still at 65 000 visas per year. hehs. giler la. i feel like im too cool for school la. like..yeah..ada visa, but whatever weh. visa shmiza...i'm going back. woohoo!

well, even with some good reasons not to go home, i still came back. A LOT of things have gone through this pass 6 months. seriously banyak. tak tau nak start dari mana. they are all fun. i dont think it fits in one post. (now i start regretting not to write more posts....man...).

the mid year review (malas nak elaborate):

the job - giler rocks my socks la kan. no complains.
the weather - i LOVE the sun.
the food - not a picky. ever.
the entertainment - not really happy with the movie choices in theater, but make up with some other activities. pulau2. melepak tak tentu hala. 'hiburan di hujung minggu'.
the social scene - KL is becoming much much smaller than i remember.

the only thing i can whine about is....shoes. its freaking hard to find a good pair of shoes in KL. if there's a pair yang awesome and i didnt buy it on the first catch, it would be out of my size on the second visit. macam lanch.

but other than that

IT IS AWESOME TO BE BACK IN KL!

*i guess, i needed that 5 years break from KL just so i know how awesome KL really is.

nama kereta saya ialah...

2008-05-23T10:43:00.000+08:00

SI COMOT

why? usually si comot associate to kucing yg putih then ada black spot. this is probably because back then when i was 7-8, there weren't any colorful textbook around and when they talk about cats they drew a black spotted cat and they named it 'si comot' (e.g. "Si Comot sedang berjalan-jalan di tepi tasik untuk mencari ikan"(ada gambar black spotted white cat on top of the sentence)). my car is black so boleh la kot panggil dia si comot, eventhough takde a hint of white pun. tapi probably in the future its going to white.like artic white or pearl white or something2 white. mana2 as long as white yg mengancam. with a set of cool wheels then ada bodykit sikit. gila gempak!

then there is another reason. my car is not always as shinny. i dont have much time on my hand as im busy doing nothing. dia dalam bab kebersihan luar kurang terjaga la. until my boss thought my car was gray in color. everytime i see some berkilat2 car, i always think to myself.."wah, mamat ni gila banyak masa." or "best gila ada driver boleh hantar kereta cuci, service and what not". and i do not want to be slave to my car pun. takkan nak tatang dia bagai minyak yang penuh. its just a car kan?

and last but not least...Si Comot sounds so comel!

Republican vs Democrats

2008-04-01T17:27:00.000+08:00

i'm not an expert in politics. but after reading stars online today, is it going to be Barisan National vs Pakatan Rakyat near future?

i'm sure chivsky would like to comment about this.

lagu baru yg best patut di kongsi

2008-03-27T15:27:00.000+08:00

the latest single by the raconteurs.

hate me please.

2008-03-19T11:58:00.000+08:00

in this post, i mentioned something about, owning an iphone, macbook and ipod all at once. and how cool it is, in sarcastic manner of course.

well here, today, i have a confession.
now i own all of them. macbook. check. ipod. check. iphone.check.

and how does it make me feels like? not much difference. cause i am THAT cool. haha!

this post does not make any sense. ciao!

bitches do lunch!

2008-02-06T11:29:00.000+08:00

Hi!

apa khabar semua? baik? good..good. since starts working in KL, benda paling aku look forward is...nothing. kerja or not working, hidup seperti biasa. tak tentu arah tujuan juga. the only difference is, wake up early in the morning, like around 8/ 830am. depends on how early i want to go to work. then, 8 hours or more in front of the monitor.

have no idea what i want for lunch. ada suggestions?

tapi malam ni most probably pi yong tau foo....or fuu? yg near by ampang point. so i guess, see you guys there? at around 730/8pm?

cinta,peluk dan ciuman,
pensel tumpul

kebaya merah

2007-05-24T13:45:00.000+08:00

cerita ni tergantung. so bear with me. actually, never start pun. cuma last week, i received an email from a girl. a random but not a stranger. she sent me her spring 07 results, probably mistaken my email for some officer at the student department.

her name wasnt familiar. WTF was on my mind when i read her email. no, i do not want to know what you get for your HATHA YOGA. but it is not a bad thing to know she took yoga for Physical Ed. so like anybody else in the world do these day, i googled her name. oh, saya sangat menggunakan waktu kerja saya dengan productive. anyway, the first link was from salam perantauan yang bagi ucapan kat org msia through newspapers. click. oh my, solo salam perantauan? wow. syabas. i rarely see any solo's. most of the time people would sent in a group. HOLY SHIT! (dalam kepala lagi) she looks familiar. then i remember i saw her in some fotopages few raya back. it was sambutan raya at the embassy. my friend and i nick named her 'Kebaya Merah' for the obvious reason. gila weih, Kebaya Merah gave me her college results!.

oh i replied her email...

tiada balasan. i'm still curious where she got my email from or why she would send her result to such email. would you send something like your college result to an unconfirmed/random/made up email?

a quick weekend update...

2007-03-26T07:31:00.000+08:00

not like i needed one.

new cds i got hold on last week. its been awhile since i bought any cd:

1. Arcade Fire - Neon Bible <- serious best. ingat diorang ni macam the strokes la, second sounds the same as previous. tapi saya salah, latest diorang gila rock!

2.Peter, Bjorn and John - Writer's Block <- had to get this selepas dengar Young Folks. eventhough young folks has been released last year dan kluar dalam grey's anatomy(tak tau episode mana, tapi read somewhere).

3.Lily Allen - Alright,Still <- dia comel! same go her songs. haha!

4. Jane Monheit - The Very Best of Jane Monheit <- been meaning to get her cd since i saw her back in michigan tech. she made a bad ass cover of Baby It's Cold Outside and Waters of March.

5. Beck - The Information <- errr...Beck. enough said.

6. !!!(Chk Chk Chk) - Myth Takes <- saya nak jadi hipster!

itu saja. terlampau kenyang makan. mengantuk...errghhh..sunday, lazy sunday.la la la la

what is your name again?

2007-03-12T13:41:00.000+08:00

betul la org2 kata ur name decribes who u are and bila pilih nama utk anak itu pilih la yang elok2. for me, only 24 years later to know what my name means. all this while, i was kinda embarrassed with my name as i was told my name was just a mix of my moms and my dads name. and given by my late grandmother. not that im not thankful, but i only preffer my family members to call me by that name. oh, i have two first name. cam most melayu la. so selalu i cakap my other name saja. jarang2 cakap my full name time introducing myself.

tetapi, baru2 ini, i discovered the meaning of my name. apparently, in Maori's (one of the tribe in aussie) this is what my name means:

1	(verb) (-tia,-ina) to love, pity, feel concern for.
2	(noun) affection, sympathy, charity, compassion, love.

(from :http://www.maoridictionary.co.nz/)

then i think to myself, am i reflecting my name. which leads to the 'mencabar experience' mentioned in previous post. at that time, it took me a handful of xanax , family and good friends just to let someone go. it felt like my heart was the earth and there is an ancient tree just being plucked out. could you imagine how massive is the rubble?

i felt a ease after i look that incident from a different and new view. i am what my name is. from now on, i will and with proud embracing my name.

did i just get away from upgrading my blog?

2007-03-07T07:40:00.000+08:00

NOT!!
i get a feeling this upgrade to google account isn't a good idea.....

anyway, it feels great when u've been told that u set a standard for someone. a friend of mine told me,my more mencabar experience, somehow help her to let someone go and not being hurt. tak tau ar betul ke tak my interpretation, but its like, she's looking up on me. haha! yeah, I RULE! not saying kejadian dulu was the worst thing that could happen to anyone, tapi she told me, if i could lompat2 after the incident, how hard can it be for her.

haha aku bangga!

p/s: this is my its-all-about-me mood kind of post.

Ai Fon

2007-01-11T04:59:00.000+08:00

semalam selepas jobbs reveal latest gadget from apple, semua orang cerita pasal iPhone. dan semua org nak satu. kecuali saya.

im a big fan of apple computers (tapi kini sudah jadi apple inc.). like this instance, im (still) using my 6, turning 7 soon, year old ibook. i bought this when windows released their XP. when apple released their first version of mac OS X, it was most advanced, flexible and stable os in the market, and still am. OS X was the only reason i bought this white iBook in the first place. so yeah...go mac OS!

but why would u spend $600 on an iPhone? because its an ipod with a cellphone capabilities? or because its a cellphone with an ipod build in it? i tell u what, its neither of them. from the specs i gather, its a freaking palm computer. it has mac OS X running all the application and it has a wifi! i woudlnt surf the net with just 3.5" screen. cant even read my whole email in one glance with that small screen. and the multi touch screen? im not sure whether it is durable enough for everyday use. coudlnt wait for someone complaining they scratch their phone display with their nails which resulting in low visibility. about the build in ipod? im not a big fan of mp3 player. though i own an mp3 player. it's a 1gb. not much, but enough for me. same as built in camera. tak tau apa fungsi camera on the phone. dah ada proper camera, why do i need a low res camera?

call me mundur, but i buy a cellphone because its a TELEPHONE. if i want a small computer, ill just buy a laptop.

p.s:tapi cool la if someone owns an iPhone. cam tunjuk dia tech savvy la. cam cakap...im all about high tech. and im tech savvvvyyyyyy. tapi uses only half of its full potential. sangat hipster la. ada iPod, ada macbook dan ada iPhone.

so tell me more about yourself...

2007-01-09T07:35:00.000+08:00

job interviews aside, how many times in your life have someone asked you that kind of question?

i respect those who really knows themselves, inside and out and i am envy of them. that shows your level of confidence. they really do.

but then again, sometimes i wonder. are the traits you describe yourself are really you or is it something you want everyone else see you as a person?

not quite there yet...

2006-12-04T19:18:00.000+08:00

but i learn hating myself day after day. thankyouverymuch.

tiada org baca blog post panjang2

2006-11-07T07:39:00.000+08:00

His name was Stan

He was still sleeping in his car when a woman came tapping his window. She wore a black dress with a hat. It was in the middle of the night. Oddly the woman was bare footed.

Stan felt something familiar with this woman in black dress. Did he meet her somewhere? Is she a relative? Is she one of his friends’ friends? Was she his neighbor? But somehow Stan couldn’t grab anything from his brain. Millions of neurons fired but none match to the woman familiar face thought Stan still feel comfortable and safe around the woman.

“Can I come in?” said the woman. It was a cold night.

“Ermmm…yeah sure.” with a bit of hesitation Stan let the woman in his car. She came in from the passenger side.

Stan was driving a blue ’94 Honda Civic. Nothing fancy.

“Thanks Stan. I really appreciate it” said the woman right after she close the door. The car engine was still running to keep the car warm.

What? She knows my name? Thought Stan. “Who are you?” asked Stan with a high tone but not the kind of tone when someone is mad, just a little higher then the normal polite tone. Like when someone is surprised.

“So Stan, where are you heading to?” the woman asked, ignoring Stan’s question.

It was like Stan already forgotten his earlier question. “Well, I was on my way to my fiancée house. We plan to spend time together this thanksgiving. But I felt tired and stop here to get a rest for awhile…” followed by a sighing breath. “Wait, who are you? How do you know my name? Why are you here? And what are you doing in the middle of the night in the middle of a freeway?” asked Stan wearily. He was so tired he couldn’t care less the fact that the woman wasn’t wearing any shoes.

“Oh you sound so tired. You really did need a rest stop. But I’m afraid your fiancée already receive the news.”

“WHAT? What are you saying? What news? You crazy woman! ” Yelled Stan with a hint of lost on his face. He never felt so lost and frighten before. He was panic like a small boy who just lost his mom in a departmental store.

“What do you think really happened Stan? You were too tired and felt asleep while driving 100mph. can you guess what happened next? It’s a bonus question. I could give you a hint: Something not intentionally.”

“Whaaaa…?” Then suddenly everything went blank for awhile and Stan and the woman were standing in front of car wreckage the next second. It was a blue ’94 Civic upside down. Stan felt asleep and the car went out from the lane, the car went out of control and flip out. The car crashed badly lying flat upside down. Small pieces of broken glass were everywhere. There were a fire truck, an ambulance and four police car parked around the wreckage. One of the freeway lanes was closed.

Stan, his feeling beyond sadness, beyond tears, there were no words that can describe his state.

“Wow. I can say that I’m impressed with your reaction. Usually people will go mad, cursing, blaming other people and what not. Basically they will be in denial. But you…wow! You are really calm” said the woman while looking at Stan.

“So…are…you…an angel?” asked Stan who still can’t believe what had happened. Face to face with the woman.

“No silly!” the woman chuckled “I’m Death”. She winked.

maaf zahir dan batin

2006-10-20T17:01:00.000+08:00

raya datang lagi! seperti tahun lepas, saya tidak dapat pulang ke kampung halaman. adik saya baru sahaja memberi tahu yang dia akan pulang ke kampung sebentar lagi. saya seperti biasa, tiada rasa apa2. bukan apa, saya sudah hilang semangat raya sejak tidak tahu bila.

ini bukan berlagak cool atau kemodenan, ini hanya pendapat saya. rasa saya ramai berkata begini: "raya ni untuk budak2 ja". jangan salah faham, saya tidak kata menyambut raya ini childish. semua yang dibuat, akan dibuat atau atau sudah dibuat, semua adalah untuk kanak2. beli baju raya, main bunga api, makan kuih muih, pergi beraya dan semestinya collect duit raya.

hari untuk bermaaf2an? habis hari2 yg lain tak boleh buat utk minta maaf dan halal makan dan minum? bukan sama ja ka? ziarah menziarahi sanak saudara? hari2 lain yang spent time dengan rakan2 ada pula masa. untuk apa kita beraya grand2 kalau puasa 30 hari pun tak lepas. (utk lelaki ya!)

oleh itu marilah kita menyambut hari lebaran tahun ini dengan kesederhanaan dan bersyukur dan mengharapkan ibadat2 yg kita lakukan diterima.

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin.

p/s:saya irihati dengan org2 yang beraya di malaysia kini. blah ar! oh dan juga saya nak rewind time dan jadi kanak2 balik!

The Science of Sleep

2006-10-04T18:31:00.000+08:00

This was the first movie I saw for this just appearing fall and truth to be told, I do like fall. Fall is when I could wear jackets or hoodies and not look like a jackass. That’s like the reason # 9 in my “Why do I want to study in States” list. The first was weezer then second I wanted to be Nelly Furtado’s roomie, but it was too late and realized that she came from Canada. Talking about a huge disappointment.

The only place showing this movie was at Oriental Theater which located at the East side of Milwaukee. Im not sure whether if The Science of Sleep is eccentric enough to be an indie movie, but East Side is flocked with hipsters and Oriental Theater usually shows indie movies. Back in the summer, Oriental was the only place that shows A Scanner Darkly and I missed that. Anyway im not writing this to talk about the place, I want to share with you guys what The Science of Sleep is all about.

Basically this movie is about a guy named Stephane who cant detach himself from his dreams. That makes him a weirdo who thinks the reality is a dream and what he is dreaming is real. Stephane has a French mother and a father who is a Mexican. Early in the show, that guy, Stephane just moved to france from mexico to his mom because his dad just died from cancer. He was also been told by his mom that she got him a job as an illustrator. It seems that he was psyched about that. But later turns out that his job was just to glue some words on a paper and copy print it a lot to make a calendar. And he was depressed about his job…man, who wanted to see this movie? Actually the main plot of this movie is Stephane fell in love with his mom’s tenant’s, Stephanie, who live next door who in coincidence just moved in a few days after he came to france. However Stephanie wasn’t really interested in Stephane though she plays Stephane like a piano…

Gondry is really good at turning his imagination comes to life. You’ll be fascinated by how imaginary this movie is. Nearly, 60 - 70% of this movie takes place in Stephane’s dream. So you need to differentiate which one is real and which one is dream. If not im sure some of you might not be able to stand through the whole movie. The movie was entertaining though and I love it. If you’ve seen Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and like what Gondry did to it, then you will be fine with the ending of The Science of Sleep. Im neither a real movie critic nor a movie buff but I think it is not fair to say it has a bad ending. My guess is most of the time when they say it has a bad ending was just because it didn’t end like they wanted to. It’s the same as some hardcore fan for a book/comic which the book or the comic went real life on silver screen and most of them will hate them because it wasn’t how they imagined it would be. Come on, everyone died in Dawn of The Dead, but it was a good movie, for me at least. Haha!

“I like your boobs. They're simple and unpretentious.” Stephane on Stephanie’s …well you know what his talking about.

siapa nak baca pasal org kawin?

2006-09-09T20:08:00.000+08:00

kehadapan pengarang2 utusan dan berita haria n,

pertama, saya ingin mengucapkan berbanyak terima kasih kepada pihak tuan-puan kerana berpulas tenaga berusaha menyampaikan infomasi terkini lagi penting di internet untuk bacaan rakyat malaysia tidak kira dimana jua mereka berada. Pengorbanan reporter2 tuan-puan sangat saya hargai. Mereka seolah tidak pernah berputus asa mendapatkan cerita terbaru dari hal2 berkaitan politik hingga ke berita sensasi artis2 di tanah air.

Lewat saya khuatir dengan kualiti berita pihak tuan-puan sampaikan. Sejak kebelakangan ini saya dapati kita di hujani dengan pelbagai berita2 perkahwinan terutama sekali artis2 tanah air. Tidak, saya tidak jelak dengan berita perkahwinan Siti Nurhaliza dan Datuk...errr..g? or was it m?. Ini kerana saya memahami kedudukan Siti di hari rakyat malaysia. Siti adalah idola! Kanak2 yg berumur 4 tahun sudah kenal lagu2 Siti berbanding nama2 sultan di setiap negeri atau nama2 4..err..5 (ke 6?) perdana menteri malaysia dahulu. Saya agak tenang bila baca yang bahawa Siti sudah selamat menamatkan zaman 'bujang' nya. (hehe)

TETAPI, saya sangat dissapointed dengan berita pada hari sabtu bertarikh 9 september 2006 yg di publish oleh pihak tuan-puan. sila lihat lampiran ini: (untuk berita harian dan untuk utusan). Ya saya akui yang perkahwinan mereka adalah sangat grand, tetapi BERITA UTAMA dan MUKA HADAPAN? WTF? Adakah pihak tuan-puan sudah tiada berita yang lagi penting untuk di sampaikan?

Saya berasa berita2 seperti itu patut di letak di bahagian keluarga, atau wanita (mereka tidak layak utk section Hiburan). Sebenarnya, berita sebegitu tidak patut keluar lansung dalam akhbar2 utama tempatan. Ini adalah kerana, SIAPAKAH MEREKA? Siapa Datuk Roslan Hash...what? dan siapakah Puteri Shahanaz Hazlin Cendrawasih Di Tepi Perigi Tatkala Hujan Turun? adakah mereka orang penting? Bekas model? Kontraktor kelas A? apa significance mereka kepada malaysia? more importantly kepada rakyat malaysia?

OK. Mungkin cerita itu newsworth disebabkan oleh perkahwinan itu menelan perbelanjaan sebanyak RM 3.5 juta. Saya tak mau memberi spekulasi terhadap dari mana datangnya wang sebanyak itu. Tetapi tidakkah tuan-puan terpikir apa dia boleh buat dengan duit sebanyak itu selain dari untuk majlis yg mungkin berlarutan selama 2 hari maksimum? masih banyak lagi tempat2 di malaysia yg penduduknya kurang keperluan asas seperti saliran air bersih dan elektrik? Ntah, bagi saya, tidak adil bagi orang2 lain di malaysia yang baca bertapa gah-nya perkahwinan mereka berdua yang dimana saya pasti tidak dikenali ramai. (ini juga membuat kami, jejaka2 muda, tampan lagi eligible susah untuk berkahwin di sebabkan high demand oleh wanita2 lain kerana saya difahamkan, mereka juga mahu kahwin grand seperti itu.)

Di petik dari Berita Harian : "Selain itu, Puteri Shahanaz Hazlin, 24, menerima 22 hantaran termasuk BMW 320i berharga RM250,000; set barangan kemas (RM150,000); jam tangan Rolex (RM25,000); cincin (RM20,000) serta beg tangan, kasut, wangian dan kosmetik jenama terkenal." Soalan saya: Bagaimanakah saya boleh mengunakan info itu untuk kebaikan saya? Bukankah surat khabar adalah untuk menambah ilmu, membuka minda kita dengan perkembangan semasa dan menganalisa berita yang boleh kita guna untuk kebaikan sendiri? Dari Utusan pula: "Utusan Malaysia difahamkan keluarga pihak lelaki memberikan 23 dulang hantaran dan ia termasuk sebuah kereta mewah BMW 320i bernilai RM250,000." Yang kelakarnya, saya terpikir kereta itu diletak di atas sebuah dulang. Lagi sekali, siapakah mereka sampaikan pihak tuan-puan bercerita dengan lebih lanjut tentang hantaran mereka?

Walaubagaimanapun, kamu, Berita Harian, adalah terbaik. Kerana kamu menyatakan umur anak2 kepada lelaki itu. Saya di fahamkan anak perempuan sulungnya berumur 24 bukan? Saya tidak dapat bayangkan kesan psikologi terhadap anaknya itu disebabkan bapanya berkahwin dengan wanita yg sama umur. Jika saya, saya sudah demand SLK55 AMG dari bapa saya!

Ini membuatkan saya lagi sayang dengan malaysia dan saya tidak dapat tunggu untuk pulang ke tanah air. Saya berbangga kerana ada juga melayu yg kaya raya dan tidak kisah berbelanja untuk kepuasan sendiri. Ini menunjukan kemajuan ekonomi bangsa melayu. Bagus. Malaysia Boleh!

Yang Benar,
Pensel Tumpul.

p.s: apa jadi dengan lina joy dan art11(1)?

i am a wannabe hipsterrr (ala wheatus - wannabe gangster)

2006-09-07T16:41:00.000+08:00

"so can i go to my myspace with this thing? oh you are so on my top 8!"

i remember the time when i was 14 thinking "wahh...gila cool org2 besar!" but in reality im having another identity crisis at 23. ive been through mat belia then mat rempit then mat rock kapak then yuppy wannabe. now after put much thought and a long discussion with meself, i decided its cool to be a hipster. it is the shit to be these days.

im totally qualified to be a hipster. first of all, i got my own style. as a hipster you can wear anything as long as its not "mainstream". i got my $1.50 jacket that i got from a thrift store, a tight band t shirt (any band will do) and overpriced tight worn out jeans that i bought from urban outfitters. scruffy facial hair. a pair of raybans, and im all set. not forgetting my john varvatos's jack purcell. oh oh! and my 2000 ibook g3. OMG OMG, thats essential. how come i nearly missed that?.

then come their music taste. mine compare to them is like comparing a wild cat to a house cat. of course mine is a wild cat (more 'wild' and 'independent' which sums up to have better taste) and the hipsters is a house cat (spoon fed). for them, the greates band ever is The Killers. i basically could enjoy any 80s influenced electronica-dance-pop. so there you go, its not a big deal to be a house cat.

from what i gather, hipsters come from rich families. every single one of them. i dare you to find any hipster that cant afford coke to snort every week/day/hour. and my parents paid my tuition so that should be enough. though i finished my college and with an engineering degree. so i have to fix that. most of the hipster were an art student or still going to college to finish her/his "art" degree at 27.

substance abuse. this is hipster's most important diet program. before breakfast a line of coke. after lunch some coke too. then dinner, vodka and cokeee. yeah, sure, i do such thing, whatever. and you wondering how i'm still in this shape.

ive been to a lot of indie gigs and some hipster party in NY before. and all i can say...hipster girls are so hot! they got this edie sedgwick-esque going on. i mean, every one of them! and they do know how to have a party unlike those indie chicks who are shoegazer. you can see how being a hipster is a good thing nowadays. plus those chicks are rich and spoilt.

what im going to say here, is the truth. while having a conversation with a hipster, he/she will try to show they are artsy. they will bragging about their unfinished "projects". make it a music, a video, a paint, an art piece, just any kind of project that they think its an art. or they will associate themselves with some artist and having somekind of collaboration. as for me i have a few unfinished or what we call "raw unedited" songs that i havent took care and i also have an unfinished script that i started writing last year summer. i dont want to tell you what the story is about, but for now what i can say is, there will be an old red volvo and some 50s-60's malay tunes in the movie.

i feel like im already a hipster but is the world ready for me? are you? damn my ibook seems to be a tad too old.

high on 60s...

2006-08-29T20:25:00.000+08:00

its getting colder. summer is almost over. nothing says summer is over than the end of TV reruns and reality shows marathons. hello new seasons! to commemorate summer 2006 leaving, lets do a recap on this years highlights! (lame).

travel with parents. we took a 24 hours bus ride to NY which was oddly enough my parents love it. no complains at all. except for mak's frequent risau about her luggage. i went to NY for 4 times this year and NY was the same everytime.
travel with friends. florida was fun. NY was happening. bla bla bla...
midwest games 2006. joined marquette u's soccer team. yeah, i got involved in a sport activity. and yeah, we lost. twice. 0-6. we forfeited our 3rd match. talking about semangat kesukanan.
met new people. this is what ive been waiting for every summer in my college year (perghh, bunyi macam dah lama grad jer). this is what summer suppose to be: travel, lots of travel and meeting new people. im very looking foward to make new friends (girls) and this year is no different.
this one is a follow up. with meeting/knowing new people (especially girls), i tend to have a crush on one of them. sad but true. this thing happends every summer. she was fun, excites my brain, good music taste and she was way too cool for school!. i definitely gonna miss her. ahaks!
of course gigs. the best show i went to this summer was Of Montreal's gig in madison. they were so fun to dance with! the crowd was cool. we were all dancing, bouncing, singing and crying...nope. then there was lollapalooza in chicago. the line up was great. though i went there for only one day. i caught, the Go! team, wolfmother, sonic youth, flamming lips, gnars barkley and some other band. the most memorable act was the Go! team (they were energetic) and flamming lips with their aliens, ufos, balloons and bubbles. what i can say for lollapalooza is, it was enjoyable BUT the crowd was kind of boring. it seems like most of them are posers (incl. me). like on gnarls barkley's act, more than half of the main stage crowd were gone after they sang 'Crazy'. haish. and the food was expensive! oh i heard zach braff was there too. uuuu...

i guess, that pretty much cover my summer. but thats not all. there are few other things i left out. thats why they are called HIGHLIGHTS.

chopstix! how can i help you?

2006-08-24T15:56:00.000+08:00

just started work at a chinese take out in downtown. im the one who picks up phone and take the callers order. and if u were to know, this is my first time doing such thing. here was my first phone call :

(i dont exactly recall what was the conversation. so ill just put what went wrong saja OK?)

(bla bla bla...taking the caller's name, address and stuff)
me: ...and whats your order?
caller: ermmm,(indistinctly) i would like a beef mai fun...
me: sorry, a what?
caller: (again, indistinctly) a beef mai fun...
me: a what? a PEE ME FUN?

man...i suck at this job.

july's soundtrack...

2006-07-26T16:28:00.000+08:00

rocking on this tune for awhile now. saw her live yesterday. Beth Orton - Shopping Trolley. yer, she's british...they dont use the term 'cart' overthere. pffts. although she's not the drug as i expected, she rocks!

hidup bosan tanpa dadah.

2006-06-28T09:05:00.000+08:00

pernah rasa kosong di hati? pernah rasa seperti hidup ni tiada arah tujuan? apa perasaan bila hilang sesuatu yg sepatutnya sebati dengan diri?

hidup ini bosan tanpa dadah. dadah yang memberi semangat untuk hidup. dadah yang buat kamu bangun di pagi hari. dadah yang punca inspirasi. dadah yang membuat kamu tidak mahu tidur. dadah yang membuat kamu tidak sabar melihat matahari pagi esok. dadah yang membuat kamu tergila2. dadah yg memberi semangat untuk meneruskan kehidupan. dadah yang membuat kamu terasa seperti makhluk berakal.

hidup ini bosan tanpa addiction. apa makna hidup tanpa passion. hidup kosong pabila diri tiada perasaan terhadap apa-apa. hidup tiada makna pabila hatimu kosong.

Cinta Monyet (part deux)

2006-04-23T03:40:00.000+08:00

uh hu! i found out that VH1 is airing Love Monkey now. they started it last week (or was it last two weeks?) by showing the first 3 episodes and followed by latest 4th episode. sweet! this means, there are quite a demand by viewers for that show. awesome! but, the sad part is, i do not have cable in my home.

on unrelated news, saya akan habis sekolah* minggu depan!!

*maksud habis sekolah di sini adalah habis terus kena pi cari kerja punya habis sekolah.arghh!

hari ini dalam lagu.

2006-03-30T07:06:00.000+08:00

am listening to Gnarls Barkley now. their songs will be rotating in my itunes probably for a couple of days, at least. thank you.

permainan kata

2006-03-03T17:15:00.000+08:00

i just learned a new word! it is PUN. with a lot of thinking went on for a day today, i finally know how to use the word in this post. so, here it goes...

After gone through the last 2 years of soul crushing mind numbing classes without a girlfriend, this May I will be graduating as a bachelor. Pun intended.

impressive dont you think?

2006-02-19T09:20:00.000+08:00

Before KL Menjerit, there was Gila-Gila Remaja…

Bagi aku Gila-Gila Remaja adalah movie terbaik utk ditonton oleh semua remaja yg berjiwa mat rempit, seperti aku. Hari ini bagaikan seorang penagih dadah yg baru lepas gian, barang bukan sebarang barang, tapi barang BAEK punya. Walaupun GG R takde one liner, compare dengan KL Menjerit (“Kau ambik motor cabuk kau tu kejar aku tengok!!”) tetapi jalan cerita, hands down, GG R lagi power! Scene ‘superman’ pun ada dalam GG R.

On fashion sense, aku lagi suka tengok style Roy dengan geng2 dia. Dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki, semua boleh dapat kat Pertama Complex. Who goes to KLCC anyway? Aku boleh points down to exact kedai weih. Jacket kulit rempit, tshirt Kamikaze(ala yg ada bulan merah pastu ada line2 merah.org2 jepun ada pakai time serangan kamikaze), Marlboro or Playboy jacket patches, kasut hi-cut, even kedai yg boleh potong rambut style rempit pun ada.

Dari segi moral, aku rasa siapa2 yg dah tengok cerita ni sure label org2 yg bernama ‘Farouk’ adalah org jahat. Gila impact kuat weih. powerrR! Pastu kalau korang perasan, takde sorang pun hisap rokok. Mat2 rempit zaman sekarang patut tengok GG R bagi aku, sebab most of them dah lost cause. Patut contohi Roy dengan geng2 dia. Integrasi kaum sangat ditekankan dalam cerita ni. Melayu, Cina dan India dalam satu mutual group. Hebat. Roy adalah idola. Oh yer, Rosham Nor dengan Faizal Hussein dua2 ada dalam GG R dengan KL Menjerit. Felt weird seeing them get old. Aku bagi 4 stars! Hidup Rempit!!

there is a little Mat Rempit deep in our heart...

cinta monyet

2006-02-10T17:16:00.000+08:00

i hate it when it happens. i feel like i'm the unluckiest person on earth. this is the third time a such thing happened to me. now i'm wondering, why? why does this happened to me? it is not my fault that i have taste and stardard you know. please, there are at least 5 million people out there has the same interest. but, why do someone will...no the correct word is LOVE to fuck it up and make my life miserable. i'm wretched. seriously.

i just read a news that saying CBS axed Love Monkey. i'm devastated. after 3rd episode (just aired last tuesday) CBS decided, "well guys, this 5 million loser viewers wont watch any reality tv shows. cancel Love Monkey and fill the empty spot with The Amazing Race. family will loves this." #$#(*@$(#@ that!! i loved that show. the first time was Wonderfalls back in 2004 (thank god that they released Wonderfalls in DVDs). then Kitchen Confidential in 2005. now this??

Love Monkey is a show about a 30 something indie record label executive coping with life. also not forgeting his bestfriends who are in different area of experties.a doctor, a sportcaster and a big shot company executive. but they all has one thing in common; sports. if you love music, you will love this show. ben folds appeared in the second episode. they played LCD Soundsystem in the third. and all the other music in the show are awesome!! come on, i never saw any tv shows that are so bold they playing an indie electronica on the third episode.

but i think i handle it quite well. i'm not blaming the 'suits' in CBS for this. i know its all about money. you wont get into business if you not wanting profits. i cant be a selfish prick. anyway, just hope they will release Love Monkey DVDs later on. ciao lo!

hot mama!!

2006-01-28T16:52:00.000+08:00

do you know what you get when you give Desperate Houswives a few round of bong? Weeds. check out the tv series here.

who's hogging up the 512Kbps line??

2006-01-24T20:56:00.000+08:00

This is so wrong in so many ways. to tell the truth, most of the government office doesn't even has a T1 connection.

i know a relative who always come back home with some cds that she burned from her office. most of them are jap/korean soap series. and she is a government officer in one of the department in johor. so its not just porn.

isn't it a relieve to know where the taxes really went to?

*im still a student. never paid any tax before.

Qué pasa?

2006-01-22T20:18:00.000+08:00

tak tau apa jadi. bila dengar diorang...i start shaking, dancing!! walaupun tidak faham. too funky to describe what they sounds like. french/spanish/english. whatever.

Los Super Elegantes

never too late

2006-01-20T07:40:00.000+08:00

i want to this before its too late.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Utada Hikaru!!!!

its her 23rd birthday today. hope she's having a good time there in Boston.

so jealous

2006-01-19T12:53:00.000+08:00

not by tegan and sara. yer la, kalau letak title dari some song utk title blog post, selalu will follows with the songs lyric. lucu!

kini saya sangat cemburu terhadap seorang kawan saya!

she fell in love. im happy for her. yes, jealous and happy at the same time. no word can describe her passion towards Rilo Kiley now.

it has been quite some time since i have a passion towards a band. i really miss that feeling. how you can listen to them every day, 24/7. how you really want to see them live. and how you really trying to sound like them. after i saw weezer live last year, i asked myself, "so, what's next??". im lost!

bah anyway, i dedicate Melt Your Heart to her and her new found band. and i'll be listening to Handle With Care whole day. both of them are songs from Jenny Lewis's solo album, titled Rabbit Fur Coat. GET THE CD!!

oh yer, saya akan berusaha bersunguh2 utk pi Rilo Kiley or Jenny Lewis punya gigs!!! yoshh!!

dwi teras bebeh!!

2006-01-18T12:44:00.000+08:00

if you noticed, apple just released two of their new machine last week, iMac and MacBook Pro. They both looks the same as their old counterpart except MacBook is slightly thinner than powerBook G4. but inside, both of them are powered by the latest intel dual core processor dubbed by apple as Intel Core Duo for their Mac products. it is two Pentium M put together in one chip. apple stated that in average, intel machines run twice as faster than powerPC.

performance was not the only reason apple switched to intel. people in IBM still cant work out the heat/power management problem their powerPC has. if you notice there are no G5's laptop. this is because G5 produces so much heat that they cant configure it to put it in laptops. if you are wondering, Intel Core Duo's power consumption is slightly higher compare to G4 if not the same.

intel doesnt stop here. there are also providing apple with their development tools for apple such as Intel C/C++ compiler for apple, Intel Fortran Compiler for apple and an Intel Integrated Performance Primitives for Apple which im not really sure what is it for.

this is sweet. i do not need another reason to get one of those. except for the fact of lacking $2k in hand. for now, what i can do is waiting for Duo Core in iBook. my current iBook is already 5 years old. hermm...

you can read the details here: www.apple.com

PENGUMUMAN

2006-01-14T08:02:00.000+08:00

did i tell you i'm back in the loop??

4 credit hour per semester - part time jobs = a LOT of free time. a derivation of 'a lot of free time' will result 'totally bored'. which can conclude to, 'i need some random project'.

so, any suggestion?

is it 2006 already??

2006-01-06T18:52:00.000+08:00

it was a smooth switch from 2005 to 2006. no fancy event or happening party took place. just old hanging out in a bar with bunch of friends like everyday. my place is kinda kampung and not too many yougsters around. and it is christmas break so most of the students are back at their home. it wasnt any different from any other days, same faces but with new year hats.

by looking back at 05, the worst day in 2005 for me would be the day i bang my friend's car to a divider on a bridge 20 miles from Madison. march 12 was the date.it was snowy night. i was on my 20 hours driving back to home from nashville. i did 50mph. i was alone. a truck passed me, it was a huge truck!! and i drving a fag mobile (a purple ford escort) which was so weak it ran out of control after it hit the turbulence caused by the truck. the slippery road made it worst. the car spun, my hand tight on the sterring wheel and i couldn't help but keep thinking that cars approaching will hit me sooner or later. it was intense. it was crazy, it was thrilling. i already imagine i will end up in the hospital next morning. but thank god it spun to the road side and bang the divider. then 4 months and $700 later, the car was repaired and still looks gay.

to make balanced, my coolest day in 2005 would be, hands down, the Jun 14th. this is the day i've been waiting all my life. this is the day where my dream came true. this is the day when i went to see Weezer live!! it was the reason i came to States. i had to choose between UK or US. Radiohead or Weezer. ironicaly, i went to their show in London. but it was worth it!! it was intense. it was crazy and of course it was thrilling. to see them live is among my to do list before i die. seeing rivers cuomo playing just mere 10 feet away from me was awesome!! a good 6 hours spent without sitting or rest. plus i got to see a lovely lesbian twin performing too (Tegan and Sara).

anyway, most of 363 days left filled with sleeping. it was a good year for music. but then again, there wasn't any bad music year ever before . except the 80s. the year started with arcade fire's album and ended with metric's second album release. and not forgeting some good indie folk, canadian and swedish indie releases in between. the only thing i hope for this year is, better end of year movies.

better luck next year

2005-12-26T13:31:00.000+08:00

its dec 26th. another year till next christmas. and most of the people on earth still never learn what they really need in life. they only care on what they want...

ignorance is bliss

its a cruel world

2005-12-26T11:54:00.000+08:00

have you ever wonder why Autobots cant fly (except the one that can transform into flying vehicle) and a gun transforming Decepticon (i.e. megatron) can?

yeah sure they wanted to show to kids not what you can do but it is what in your heart that matters. just be sure you have good intention and your battle againts evil will end with victory. all those advantages the bad guys have, flying ability, greater fire power, bigger number of army with badass looks are just to bloat their egos. right?

who am i kidding? real world sucks! its survival of the fittest guys. if you dont have or dont use the advantages you have, you are screwed. you'll be eaten alive. there is a time when you say "yeah, that guy is smart and nice. he'll do OK". yup, he will do ok. just a OK. dont be surprise later when the other manipulative guy who everyone hates climbing up the ladder become the head. and the nice guy is just under him. sure the nice guy is doing ok, but the one who knows how to use his advantages will do better. just being nice and good hearted will not get you to anywhere. no seriously, its either dipijak atau memijak.

soundtrack of our lives

2005-11-26T16:24:00.000+08:00

out of boredom, i went look out for whats new from hollywood,a magical place where most of the films on this planet came from. looking foward for Aeon Flux and Hoodwinked. one is an adaptation from an animation back in 1995 and the other is an animation. aeon flux is a sci fi action movie with Charlize Theron whos playing as Aeon Flux who is sexy and lethal assassinator and Hoodwinked is red ridding hood gone wild.

after watching a lot of trailers and teasers, i discovered that, the songs they play in trailers played an important role in attracting movie goers. in this case the upcoming Superman Returns (2006). i'm not a big fan of superman but after watching the trailer, i have this feeling that i need to see that movie! honestly, the trailer didnt show anything interesting cause we know who superman is and what his powers are. so whatever they show in the trailer are nothing special. unlike spiderman or batman (2005), they show the amazing graphics or the incredible gadgets (batmobile <- need one of those) batman has. this make me wonder and more curious why i had the urge to really want to watch this next superman movie. and i watched the trailer few times again and again, until i realized i was attracted to the orchestral theme of superman. it wasnt about hot chicks, intense shooting action,big explosions, fast cars, nail bitting suspense and hot chicks like normal movie trailer has. but it was just trumpet, bassoon, sexophone, bass drums and cello that really got me. it really amazed me. kudos to them! now it's killing me just to wait for the next superman.

now, should i go and watch Rent or Just Friends...

selamat hari raya!!!

2005-11-23T07:28:00.000+08:00

nothing beats the feeling of receiving a kad raya di bulan syawal.it was the most semangat raya i got here.

she sent it last month and i thought her card was lost in transit. after more than a week without checking my mail, i found the kad raya today. my bet is, the card was there for while. i was so busy to check my mail. or maybe i was avoiding the bills...

ahh, wireless, cable, gas, water etc...does anyone knows how to make them go away?? anybody?

oh yer, terima kasih yer cik mawar utk kad raya itu.

revenge of the nerds

2005-11-15T08:02:00.000+08:00

while (has enough cash to pay fees)
{

if(OStests < 60% average OR OSassignments < 60% average)
{ stay and repeat OS; }
else
{ pass Operating System(OS) and grad; }

}

i'm afraid that i'll end up in an infinite loop. damn, if only i'm one of pablo escobar's posse...

me speak no english

2005-11-13T13:51:00.000+08:00

hehey, do you want to know something funny?

a malay girl who thinks a fluent english speaking malay guys are more attractive.

i found her blog few years back and stopped reading her blog since i read that post. its been awhile. she really had a good writing skills, i mean, english wise. but after that post, it just turned me off. it was bad. she backed her hypothesis by saying that people who can speak english well show how brilliant they are. she had saying that, lelaki melayu who speaks well had better perspective on life or philosophical genius. i mean, guys are guys. they are still shallow no matter what. maybe i had it in a wrong way. cause, you know, i'm the guy who got, "errr...I tak biasa la 'aku' 'kau'..." from a girl. I tak biasa la you. I guna 'aku' 'kau' with everyone. especially people who understands malay. but worst of all, there were quite number of people agreed with her post.

its just me. i only try to speak english with non malays. some malaysian chinese here tried to use bahasa melayu with me. it was nice of them tried to speak malay and really tried hard to find soem of the malay words. i really appreciate that. but i just tell them.."man, if its killing you, just to let you know, i took 1119 and aced it."

apa sudah berlaku??

2005-11-12T15:15:00.000+08:00

she just wanted to be nice and i made a dick out of myself...

WEEKEND UPDATES!!

2005-11-08T10:20:00.000+08:00

the title sounds so exciting!! from my usual weekend research, i've found:

the Rentals are back??!?! wow that was a surprise and interesting.it has been 10 years since their first album (what '7 more minutes'?). i thought they split. next year, will be the real Return of The Rentals. i just hope they still got the happy oh so fun this song is moog synths
Shout Out Louds! They are an indie rock band from sweden. of course, without the exclamation mark, but you will feel like you are home when you listen to them. i dont know why i felt that way...
OK. bear with me now. i think, jack had a serious head injuries after the fight with the guy from the von bondies back in 2003. The White Stripes did a cover on Walking with a Ghost by Tegan and Sara and planning to put in on a single soon. here to listen. I like tegan and sara's better.

well, raya was ok. i went to see Chicken Little on friday. i ate chinese on saturday. i bought Family Guy volume 2 on sunday.

salam perantauan

2005-11-02T09:32:00.000+08:00

dari: jay, somewhere over the rainbow

ucapan: salam raya kepada rakan2 yg membaca ruangan ini. juga tidak lupa ibu bapa, adik beradik dan ahli2 keluarga yg terdekat, minta maaf tidak dapat pulang utk menyambut sama, *burp*, too wasted to remember to buy plane ticket. wish dapat makan rendang, lemang dan lotong di pagi raya, tetapi will be ok dengan bread and butter this year.

))<>((... Forever.

2005-10-30T03:15:00.000+08:00

saw You and Me and Everyone We Know.the movie was so pervert and yet innocent at the same time. weird combination, but it was hilarious! can you imagine this a line for 6-year-old boy :

"You poop into my butt hole and I poop into your butt hole... back and forth... forever."

i guess, thats what intimacy really meant for him. if you are reading this, say:

"roti canai"

butter cake with an attitude

2005-10-28T04:16:00.000+08:00

this will be my first official post-> about a butter cake which tried to kill me.

as usual woke up around 630am to have sahur and zombie like went downstairs, still hadnt figure out what to have. opened the fridge, and took out milk thinking whether to make an omelet or just have the orange creme yoghurt that i bought few days ago. while filling up milk in a glass, i saw half of what left from the butter cake i bought a couple of days before. so i thought for myself to settle down with butter cake, yoghurt and milk for sahur.

so there i was, having butter cake for sahur and flipping through an electronics catalogue,wondering if anybody will ever buy from that catalogue. it was expensive and i would rather buy from other websites or ebay! why do they even bother sending these catalogues to people anyway?

OK, and then after i ate few slices of butter cake, suddenly, the butter cake stuck in my throat!! i forced to swallow it, but it became worst, i was suffocating. No i refused to drink the milk cause it was only half left. my rule : perglass of milk permeal. this is not a normal tiny puny glass like you think, this is like full size glass that you always see in milk ads, you know, like Got Milk?. these thing is like the mother of glasses. they are huge! also, i didnt want to drink water cause water only quench your thirst and besides, water dont mix well with cakes or muffins or any other sweet stuff. and i was suffocating with cake and my pride of a glass of milk at a time..

i was doing fine when i ate them before. i think this happened cause i ate cheese cake instead of butter cake lastnight. i think they were jealous. hehs, bloody butter cakes. anyway, i gave up, and drank the whole milk that was left. still havent finish all the butter cake, and yoghurt still on the table. *sigh* i had to refilled my milk but had only filled half full this time (or was it half empty?) and finishes whats left.

so, there you go, my first blog entry. hope this will not be the last. oh yeah, the orange creme yoghurt was awesome!!never had it before. it was my first.mmmmmm...yoghurt...

hello world!!

2005-10-26T13:54:00.000+08:00

uuuu...blogging.